I couldnt help it. My mind just keeps thinking.
Maybe I should just stop talking about it, stop thinking about it.
So that i'll stop jinx-ing myself too.

I feel so helpless recently. with everything, with every thoughts.
I hate my recent oh-so sensitive lacrimal gland.
Why does it seems like my life is so full of uncertainty?

WTF. I'm only 20 now. Why the hell am I thinking so much.
Shouldnt I be enjoying my youth now instead of worrying all those uncertain future?
arghhhx. I dont like how my brain handle this seriously.

我能相信， 我能接受。 我只要一个答案。