I think i'm slow. like mentally/emotionally slow.
Reality hit me hard today, when I call out for "Popo"...Flashback of memories I had of her; and realised that she's not gonna reply me with a nod and a smile anymore.

U can't say that u're not close to someone when u had memories of that person in you.
This 20years of "not close" actually add up to alot.